Sunday, April 22, 2007

Deep Thoughts

I wonder...if you don't say something out loud, does it make it less true?

Just in case it is not true, I will only type it out instead.

Something I am eating, unbeknownst to me, is making me sick. I am struggling with my weight again. Yesterday I tried on a pair of pants - in a size 2 - and got them over my hips and done up. Would have never bought them, way too tight. The fact remains that not so long ago, you would have had to put a one in front of that two to make them fit. Now, I cannot put the weight on.

Now, let me explain. I eat. I eat a lot. Sometimes a huge portion that even surprises Roger. The biggest downfall/symptom/end result of being a Celiac is that I do not retain my nutrients and essential vitamins when there is gluten present. It robs me of everything that I consume. It is, literally, like taking my yummy concoctions and flushing them.

I am very careful. I have my own cupboard full of my own food. I have certain things that I know are safe. I don't eat out. Yet, somewhere along the line I am failing my body.

Some woman would trade spots in an instant to be thin. It scares me that the scale now reads 117lbs. Add almost 100 pounds to that, and that, my friends is the weight that I was on the day that my oldest daughter was born. Scary thought.

5 comments:

Lynn Barry said...

This may sound silly, but I will throw it out there...what about makeup or lotions...anything? I say that because if you are not ingesting gluten could you be getting it through your pores.
I did not test positive for celiacs so I don't know what you go through but I did buy Mary Kay products years ago and my face broke out in blisters and I was a mess...I had not idea what was happening until I started on this gluten free routine and now know that many products we use outside our bodies have wheat in them. This is just a thought. I have even discovered shampoos with wheat. They make my head itch.
I pray you can get to the bottom of what is making you sick. HUGS AND LOVE, dear friend.

LKW said...

Hope you find the cause of your ails soon.

Anonymous said...

Hmm, I wonder what it is. The body is a mysterious entity...have you talked to your doc? I hope you find out what is making you a size 2. (((HUGS))

the queen said...

who would have ever thought that being a size 2 is not a good thing. It's not a bad thing, as long as you are healthy and feeling good. How are you feeling?

Lea Ray said...

I wish I could think of something that you might be missing and that would help. It is so easy to get glutenized without even knowing it. I was reading the other day that even drywall has gluten in it. I wish you the best of luck and hope that you start feeling better soon.